I haven’t been on here in sooo long. 

BUT tomorrow I leave for Orlando with my internship for Disney. I’ve cried for like 3 days. I’m gonna miss all my work friends so much. we had the best time at charlies show and these people were there for me for a lot of important times in my life during 2015. I couldn’t have done a lot of what i did with their support and others of course. It sucks to build bonds with people and know you might not see or hear from them. I’m used to driving to the mall and seeing these people and know I’m gonna have a stupid funny day and now its just anxiety of moving to an entirely new city and living with girls I’ve never met before and a job I’ve never thought of doing. Im gonna miss my sister sooooo much. I can’t not be around here and now i won’t know when ill see her again. My mom and dad actually came to their senses somewhat and have been a huge help in me going away for this internship. Although i wish they would be different,this is a step in the right direction. I cried with my mom for like 30 mins before i got into bed bc were gonna miss each other so much. I’m excited for my dad to come to Orlando with me and i can take him to downtown disney! he’s never been and i know he will love it and appreciate the down time he has away from work. I hope they make it to see me and my mom feels better soon so we can have a fun weekend at the parks. I miss jess but i already know she’s doing amazing things in haiti and being apart will make seeing her so much more worth it when she comes to orlando. My online classes seem super chill which is awesome. I hope my friends come visit me in orlando but i can’t way to make so many new friends and see something new for a change! I really hope to become more independent and feel less 12 and more 23 when i come back from this internship. I really hope that going away for 5 months to work for a huge company will be enough to make me stand out against other people applying for cool jobs that i would love to do once i graduate or even come back home. I would love working for the panthers or even disney again with events. I’ve had such a blessed and amazing 2015 and i hope the momentum keeps going. I think i deserve a break from all the dumb shit for at least a year lol. I  am soooo excited to meet these girls and to see our apartment and go to disney! Meeting families and seeing them excited to be somewhere soooo happy is gonna be such a change from being in Miami. I hope i learn a lot from this and grow into someone who can handle difficult things at jobs. Being a manager at AG deff gave me confidence and the push i needed but i could deff use more and get more work ethic advise. Im just soooo excited and lucky. Out of 60 thousand people and out of 150 people that they hire for this job I’m going for, I actually got picked. Everyone at work said so many nice things about me and I’m starting to believe them. I just need the experience. Im so so soooo excited. Its 12:51 am and i should be sleeping but i can’t wait. and i also don’t want to sleep bc that means less time away from my sister who is on my iPad plurringg

 away. 

im so excited and lucky.  2014 was the lowest I’ve ever been in my life, and I’m glad i had the people around me to bring me back up. I would’ve been an idiot to have done something so drastic for a temporary emotion. I really love my life right now and I would honestly encourage everyone to keep looking forward because things do get better. 

obviously I’m bawling.

Yes my tumblr will be a diary from now on. 

#Imwiththeband2016

Bye 

1/17/16